It's been a year plus since i last posted on this blog , i almost forgot about this blog's existence already . So now where do i start ?
Let's start with school life , well the study part of my poly life is already over , it's quite saddening actually , now that i'm separated from the rest of my poly friends , with them going for their FYP first and me heading for attachment first .__. . But i gotten used to it already , after all this is what everyone that enters a poly has to face eventually. I'm already 3/4 into my attachment , which means i'll head back to school for my FYP in roughly 3 more weeks . It's pretty fast i swear , because after my FYP is done , my poly life is officially over . Then army life will be just around the corner . I guess i'll just take it a step at a time eh :)
And then , there's my love life , there's this girl i have been liking for roughly 7 months .. I have been with her through her ups and downs of relationships with her boyfriends , and recently she broke up with her bf .. It was rather devastating for her , she resorted to drinking and clubbing to drown her sorrows . Honestly , it really hurt me seeing her like that . But there's this guy in her class that likes her , she likes him too but she's afraid of getting hurt again . Now usually guys at this point , well most of them , will take this chance to confess , but for me , even though i really liked her , i want her to be happy , even if it's not with me. So i told her to go for it because i can tell that she really likes him , and to let go the painful past and move forward. And thankfully she did , now she's getting along with this guy.
I really feel happy for her that she's gotten over the past and moved forward with this other guy , but at the same time .. The pain i feel when she shows me pictures of them together , it's not exactly the most easiest thing to endure . But i have to , for her happiness . She's having a rather happy life now , and i'm really glad she is . But sometimes when i feel alone , i'll still think of her though , it's not right .. But i just can't help it , i can only look at her from a distance with this other guy ..
Well that's all i have to say , the good thing about this blog now is that its existence has long been forgotten by others , so i can treat this as my personal diary =)
Signing off :
4:32 pm
29/10/2013
i dreamt about you and me at 1:33 AM.
